Thursday, January 31, 2008

point A and point B

point A: heidi's gone visiting her sister in baltimore. this is sad for a multitude of reasons:

1) i miss her. she is wonderful company.
2) sleeping alone in our gigantic bed scares me. i heard noises all last night as i tried to sleep (yes, i was scared because my wife was not home to protect me).
3) i haven't had a decent meal since she left (day-old salad and popcorn for dinner last night, for example).
4) i just keep working late because, what's the point of going home? but work is dumb. quandry.
5) last night started with an episode of jeopardy, followed by several episodes of law and order, followed by dinner impossible. this would be a perfect evening if not for the fact that i laid alone in a swaddling blanket and refused to move for fear that i would lose my warmth (i decided to turn the heat down since only one person is using the house now instead of two. this made sense to me when i did it).
6) heidi makes me smile. i have grown accustomed to this, but i realize now how terrible it is to not see her all the time.
7) i find myself writing blogs about how miserable i am without her (it's been roughly 36 hours) and this brings an all new awareness of how pathetic i really am.

and all of that leads to point B, namely, that i would like to go out tonight and hang with the boys (on a school night?) but apparently there is some winter storm advisory and i am advised to stay home and only travel if necessary. in california, this kind of stuff never happened. we never had to coordinate our lives around weather... it was the same every day. i find it hard to believe that weather would be the culprit of ruining my night. but it is a distinct possiblity.

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